Before camp, I had been dealing with a lot of things in my life. I felt angry, alone, and that I didn’t belong. During worship, I felt hollow. I was in a tent full of people but felt so alone. I started talking to God saying, ‘God, you’re my Father! What kind of Father are you? Do you not love me? I am supposed to be your child!’ I was so angry. All of a sudden, I began shaking and crying as God’s love fell on me. For the first time, I felt the love of God.
God did a lot of amazing things in my heart this week. I struggled a lot with finding my identity in my race. I did not accept who I was. I asked God, “Why am I like this? Why am I not like everyone else?” God replied back to me saying that He calls me beautiful, He loves me, and I am His child. He showed me that my home is in heaven, not on earth. My identity is in Him, not in who I am on earth. God showed me my new identity in Him and I can be who He created me to be!
I had been struggling with loneliness and felt like I wasn’t wanted by anyone. During one of the worship sets, the singer started repeating, ‘I have a family. I have a home. I have a Father. I’m not alone.’ In that moment, I felt God’s love for me and all the loneliness went away. God helped me forgive the people in my life who made me feel alone, and now I’m free!
For a long time, I felt like I was not good enough and that I would never fit it. I came to camp wanting to change my perspective. I wanted to see myself how God saw me. During one of the ministry times, God revealed to me that he never missed a thing that was going on in my life, that he was always there for me, and that he would never leave me. After that, I let it all out and cried the most I have all year. In that moment, I finally felt worthy, enough, and free!